不顾一切

突然很暴躁的说

刚从美容院回来
又砸了一笔
开销大了
没关系
开心就好

不明白
为何我只有一星期的假期
这是啥假期
哇靠
用来补我熬3个月的眠都不够!

好累
好想把自己关在家里
懒惰起来了
一点也不积极
气死了!

为何总是有所决定的时候
转折点就出现
然后告诉你这个那个
之后
再慎重考虑
重新出发
那么,
决定什么时候可以变成决定?

要什么时候才可以到达目标?
Fed up
我想,
大吃一顿
虽然已经违反
不顾一切了
飘~

过度期


经过和朋友的对话中

发现
原来不只有我
最近变得眼浅
对方也如此
若无其事
莫名其妙
眼泪夺眶而出
原来,
一路以来背负好沉重的心理
无法释怀
难免有此所为

没有正确的管道
吃饭泪颗划下
也不足为奇
毕竟这也是其中之一的管道
不理会旁人眼光
自己舒服最重要

大癫大废之后
寂静上门
感触,领悟
渐渐浮现
回想起来
不算什么
只是那时候的我们
不明白当时立场该怎么处理
现在,
渐渐晓得...

整装自己,
重新出发...


28/5/11


Back from my dear sweety 21st bufday's celebration.
Oh, love her so much! <3
Sore throat from Tuesday
still having chicken meal and k session just now
until Mr. Donald visit me personally.
I'd lost my voice, couldn't speak and sing right now
Ops... Nothing to do. Just let it be. haha.
I just want to enjoy whatever could make me to release. =p
It was terrible i knew.
Stay tune for the pic ya.
Sweet dream! =)

Pre-Holiday

My love made by Sherly Vuitton =D


哈咯
感觉还不错的心情
可是却生病了
由周二开始,
没一天好好休息
可以说活该或不该

星期二,
特地因为一个朋友捧场吃法国菜
下班时间塞定了,
匆忙提早出门,
意外我早到了一个小时半,
没办法接受太守时的我
呵呵呵
把手提电脑一同带去赶assignment
以前的我就是没办法分心
呆在房间一整天人脑对电脑
功课完毕才踏出房门
现在去到那就赶到那
感谢朋友的大方把我请到他家
好让我继续我的作业 <3

一顿美味又漂亮的晚餐
心情顿时愉快
也因此后遗症
哈哈
之后再赶到公司
探望我的老板们
他们忙他们的
一个人静静在角落努力完成该死的作业
越做越讨厌
它让我想起他该死的脸
厌恶的声音及表情
恨不得把他打下18层地狱
谢谢老板们的拔刀相助
不相干却愿意陪我熬夜
直到完毕为止
感动!

周三把作业交了
完全陷入高涨状态
不曾有如此感受
和我爱的人-Amanda & Ashley
到sushi zanmai用餐
之上次我生日后
没机会到此一吃
当天吃得痛快
但不过瘾
喉咙应该是发炎
吞食很困难

晚上和朋友准备给老板一个惊喜
当天是他的生日
撒了谎我缺席
结果意外现身
果然被骗了
Bangsar Village @ WIP
是一个很不错的地方
一般很少来这里explore
毕竟年龄特征层次不同
哈哈哈
东西很不错吃
可惜喉咙影响我食欲
胃口不好
痛苦
可却享受当晚的气氛
一级棒!
有他们的带领
竟闹他们带我去clubbing
哈哈!
没有酒精也可以那么high
我疯了!
毕竟处于精神紧崩状态已经数月了
是时候释放

周四
放学原以为没地方去
老板一个电话被叫去当白老鼠
哇靠!
人生第一次的studio shoot
还穿起婚沙
不上镜的原因
所以样子很cacat
可悲 T^T
这次还带了小妹一同
好好玩
期待他们的作品
希望可以来的正式的
*期待*

这样,
连续三天
我挂了
这样形容最适合不过
接着,
喉咙发炎,咳嗽,伤风
通通找上门
真的挂了...
还没好好开始享受期待以久的假期
我真的挂了
该死的说
今天应该有节目
车子发生障碍
被逼取消
也好
乘机休息
虽然我更想出门
哈哈
不知死活的我
这星期有得忙了!
享受!
至少不是作业就好!
各位晚安
好梦 =)









难免

不顺利的今天

无辜被顾客大声指骂
我是笨蛋
是的,我说
还附加谢谢.
他骂得真对,
眼眶红了,
虽然那不是我的错.

灰心的时候,
脑袋总有念头一闪而过
那么拼命
到底是为了什么
博取别人的一句称赞?
还是为了自己?

朋友都劝我放弃,
乘年轻时候,
应该好好享受学院生活,
没必要把自己逼成那样.
虽然他们佩服我有这样的能耐
其实我没有很棒
脆弱,
比较贴切.
总是因为经不起挫折
容易崩溃
今天也难免如此.

做好本份没什么不对,
为何总是遭来历不明的责骂?
是不是应该选择性放弃?
谁人能指引我正确的去向?

现在的我
还能向谁诉说?
今夜,
脆弱找上门,
再次,
眼泪夺眶而出...



If I Die Young

无疑,

首次,
连续3天呆在家里,
日夜以继在赶2份assignment
7千字数分别2千&5千个字数.
起床>电脑>睡觉,
我连午餐和晚饭都省了.
真的处于放弃的状态,
满脑子都是文字
在想该怎么由数百个子扩充至5000
这是一个极大的挑战,
并非一朝一夕的事情.
虽然经过上一次更加last minute的状态,
这星期的我变得好积极,
奇迹~

反效果也因此出现,
视力变弱了,
晚上驾驶散光突然提升了很多,
尤其这几天晚上都雨天,
雨水打在镜子上显得模糊,
要我看清前面的去路,
更显得困难,
对我而言,
非常头痛.

submit的前一个晚上,
终于完工了
洗澡完毕距离当灰姑娘还有一个小时半的时间,
充分利用这段时间
到外面用餐,
具体来说,
这一餐集合了我的9餐.
感恩,
下雨天里,
看起来既简单又平凡的手工面竟如此温暖
虽然肚子有点不适.

隔天,
紧张兮兮地
把5000千草稿交上去给老师过目
开什么玩笑,
随便的草稿都要5000,
很难想象即将来临的10,000字数
我该怎么办
到时又得
呕心沥血的赶出来了.

幸好,
老师的称赞
总算给我打了支强心剂
也给我的情绪缓化了.
接下来的课,
已经无心在听,
乘休息时分,
把功课交了就走人了
留住人也留不住心
强迫自己也是浪费时间
干脆做一些自己喜欢的时间
更加感恩! =)

这一边忙assignment
另一边忙自己的事情
早上上课,下午工作,晚上留给自己
去做一些很有意义的事情
(至少我是那么认为)
昨天忙碌地把工作赶完
换件衣赶下一趟的工作.
1600sqf 的地板,
洗了又刷,刷了又洗,
来回几次,
都是我一个人干的.
手掌经过水与拖把的摩擦红肿的长了水泡

没关系,
今天一样重复地
不过是在地板粉刷,
一样地来回几趟,
几乎整一大半的地板由我一个完成.
看来要完成这巨大的任务
得分开来几天完成.

没关系,
虽然
最后
该出现的人
最后都没有出现
因为
我相信
我一样可以做得很好.

只是现在,
手真的很疼,
十指肌肉紧绷,
触摸的手感都没了
只有疼痛和干燥.
还有腰酸死了
好像干了几天苦工似的.

我的天啊,
要何时才能复原?
突然想起一首歌
If I Die Young



Swear

Imbi wet market is going to shift to the other places soon as the developers are going to take this land property to develop a new building such as shopping complex, condominium or commercial centre or something like that. You should know i love been there for breakfast as they have nice Hainan coffee, roast bread and bun, and half boiled eggs as well, all are my favourite. =)


Today is Wesak Day, no need go for hiking, no class and no work, why not i go to enjoy my breakfast at Imbi wet market? It's such a big offer to me, LOL. There have variety of food like fish head noodles, Apam (Indian's snack-majority could found in Penang and other states), nasi lemak, vegetarian foods, yong tofu, etc.

But i just prefer Hainan coffee. Have fun to breakfast with family. =)

Spend myself to doing something which i looking for quite a time. LOL. It's difficult to see me stay in home more than an hour. haha.

I went to salon for hair wash and cut in sudden, i keep asking myself why i did so, lol, something wrong with me. A little bit not into mood, hmm, try to figure out what's happening.

I swear i MUST go for sing k after submit all my assignments by end of this month!
And also movie ( i wanna try out the GOLD CLASS), meet my friend up for shop and foods, and more. ARGH.

Alright, is time back to assignment, luck!

Through

Oh my goodness, burn mid night oil for assignment, no idea i'm being so lazy, aiks. But end up when ready to submit i was told to postpone for following week, argh, a bit pek cek you know, mean i have to re-do and editing to make it perfect, i hate to re-do. T^T

Coming this week gotta submit the re-do and draft of 5,000 words assignment. Anyone could help me? I need to release so well =.=ll
Thanks God, pimple didn't visit me at this moment, i will cry serious. Perhaps nope.
I want go for sing k, food (korean food, radiation food, italianese food, i want sapu all as long as it is food and nice! LOL) I think im crazy. I need more time to do my assignment, anyone could be my tutor to teach me beside?
Phew, is time to gambate!!!

加油


怀疑妈妈昨晚在晚饭下了药 因为大妹和我原本想温习功课 结果不知道为什么在爸妈房间里呆了几个小时直到凌晨 好像吃了兴奋剂似的聊个不停 妈妈说不干他事 可能菜有问题 呵呵呵 不晓得是不是压力的其中原因之一 昨晚真的聊了很多 就连平时很酷的大妹都那么健谈 呵呵呵 平时不说话但讲起话来就一鸣惊人 笑死我了 哈哈哈 爸爸的表面虽然看起来就很酷 但也挺关心我们的 平时就和我们吵吵闹闹 整个老孩子一样 呵呵呵 咱们竟聊起了爱情观,事业观,家庭观,及其他的 哦 应该说他们都像多在问我在答 好像口试那样 爸爸竟然会提供我意见而且还是很搞笑的那种 呵呵呵 真不知道该给什么反应咯 我爸爸真的可爱死了 难怪一直称赞自己是宇宙最强的爸爸 笑掉我牙了 哈哈哈 压力的时候 总是有某种力量在为我化解 替我解决烦恼 为此感到幸运和幸福不已 虽然明天是assignment的截止日期 我还在这里po文章 哈哈哈 看来我得为degree第一次开夜车咯 是时候加油咯! 带着愉快的心情赶功课应该会很快完毕吧? 但愿如此 呵呵呵 大家也为生活加油啊! =)

Go!

Oh God, gotta submit 1 full assignment and 1 draft by this Thursday.

Spending too much for relaxing on internet, TV, friends and family.
I really lazy to start my assignment even deadline is around the corner.
Aiks, hate myself be so lazy and inefficient, sigh.
Wanna have some 'you tiao', chatime, in sudden, and other food could make me feel happiness, lol.
Something wrong with me, get tiring easily (meaning i easy sleepy recently), appetite become more good often, my life is like a pig, lol.
Sometime i might bored and tiring with my life, aiks, how come?
Motivate needed to push me hard in often, argh.
Realized something to be neglect for quite some time, gosh.
Go! Go! Go!

O Cafe@ Empire Shopping Gallery

O cafe located in Empire Subang Gallery, noticed this organic food restaurant because i was get 2 vouchers from WEBUY with RM20 each worth RM50.

I untung so much man, bring family to give a try on. =)


The menu look nice with all circle, creative =)

Sabrina and me



Wild mushroom soup, really enough WILD LOL
Mushroom sauce in spaghetti
Organic garden salad
Sweet vege sushi roll with the sauce

Forget the name but it is something like mushroom.
Another type of salad.
Hawaii pizza. =)

The place is comfortable, the staffs provide good service, one thing should to be emphasize they are using recycle fiber as tableware which in light brown color, light, and simple.
They also display at the main entrance for selling which easy to grab customer attraction.
Anyway, it's a good recommendation to try this out. =)

Bufday Celebration ♥5

Another birthday celebration from Mr. Forward, ppl start spam me, honestly not purposely to show off okay, just good friends are beside and ready for me to celebrate this big day, i will also ready for them when they need me most alright.

I knew him around half year when i been in Hong Kong trip with Lilian, he is as a tour leader always lead us around Hong Kong, and help us carried the luggage as we're the only 2 young pretty girls among those uncles LOL!!! He is kind and nice person actually.
Definitely he doesn't know about my birthday until he saw my album posted one by one, hence, he invite me and Lilian for dinner on middle of April as apologize, why not? Be half year not to see him. hehe. =)

Cam-whore in the lift.
I'm upset while looking picture, majority people told i'm look good in real than picture. Is it good feedback? I don't know, sound not good. fed-up =(

Taaaadaaaaa~ Xenri D'Garden Terrace Japanese Cuisine.

I love the environment =)



This is a private room, only VIP able to get it with certain number of people.
Because of Forward, we get the private room easily, i am like a kid jumping here, running there as no people can see whatever we did inside the room, even have no table manners, haha this is what i prefer, always take care your image as first is quite suffering, i do always complain to my mum why i'm not born as a boy, argh, otherwise i can do whatever i like, i have much freedom than now. To be a boy is my wish, girl have to take care a lot of thing and image. mafan.
A bit out of topic actually, sowie. Ops, don't get misunderstanding, it's doesn't mean i'm abmornal or les alright, just i'm lazy person.
There are variety of fooood~
Come, let's picture do a talking .=)
Sashimi

Teriyaki
Ramen/Udon
Salmon Sushi
Fresh Prawn
Fresh Oyster


The cute sushi, it's refresh the drama of Rippling Blossom. hehe
Me and Forward.
Aiks again, fed-up with my face =.=
He look so min qiong to have a picture with me huh. lol
Big thank you to him.





Private room provided japanese slipper easy for you to change when you going to take food at outside.


Chawanmushi
Hot dish

Side food.
He is busying taking picture and upload to fb LOL


Desserts.

She is eating and i forcing her to picture LOL



This is the most funny part.
Suddenly the waiter take a birthday coming in, a little bit shocked almost a month late but still gotta blow candle and make a wish, wth, haha. I can't stop laughing while seeing the cake, lol.
The dark chocolate cake is quite nice but it finished my sister once get it home =(
I just get a little slice of cake, i miss the cake wei.




An extra present and the souvenir- Shanghai Expo (which been leave it almost few month) received from Forward, i like it so much.
诚意和没的区别真的很大.
有诚意的,无论人在多远多么迟,送上给你的永远是最真诚的祝福.
没诚意的,一句生日快乐就敷衍了事的人,诚意的限度应该真的很有限,也不需要再期待他会带给你什么, 无论他说的天花龙凤都是白说.
一个简单的晚饭就教我有所领悟,我智商又上升了,呵呵呵~~~